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A Message from Otto

Posted on October 18, 2007 by Otto.
Categories: Sending Love.

Give thanks!

Gratitude: I’d like to start by saying Thank You to everyone around me that has been so completely and selflessly supportive and LOVING to me and my family in the past few weeks. I can not possibly fully express the strength that I have received through your good words, kind deeds and loving gestures of Friendship and support. The last two weeks have been among the most challenging in my life and simultaneously the most incredible. I was told a week ago to see this as an opportunity to really see how much I am Loved and Supported in this world; those were hard words to read at the time, but make a lot more sense now! I’ve seen and heard things from all of you in the past weeks that I didn’t think were possible! Every one of you AMAZE me.

Specifically, I’d like to thank Lee Williams for his incredible efforts in activating this powerful community, literally around the world and overnight! Starting the day after my surgery, each day he’d bring me a folder of printed emails and photos that were being sent to a web site I’d never even seen and a longer and longer list of contributors to this cause that includes people I’ve know my entire life and some I’ve never met and end each day by reading all of your kind words and reading aloud the names of everyone on the list; this provided immeasurable strength and healing when I desperately needed it!

Hope: This week I was told I have stage 4 colon cancer and that it has spread to my Liver. Not the news I was hoping to hear, but it certainly not the end! I know this and believe this with every cell (healthy or not) in my body and with every ounce of strength in my SOUL. I need you all to know this and believe this, as the collective healing powers of focused intention and belief can not be stopped.

Strength: My recovery from surgery is moving along swiftly and I’m getting stronger by the day. I’m at HOME now and that brings me a lot of strength, along with all the beautiful people who have come by to share time and space and a laugh or a tear. I’m grateful for the presence of each and every one of you in my LIFE!

Love: As most of you know I have a new source of TRUE LOVE in my life and in my home. My partner Indra and her son Arian moved into my home just a few short weeks before this was all discovered. I need to thank you all f or the support that you are giving to me and to them during this time of healing. Her strength, love, and knowledge of healing and healing foods is making me stronger by the day. We are truly blessed to be surrounded by all of you and your unwavering support of us together. As you know, the days have been long and the news has been at times grim; but you have all been here for us,treating us as a single unit and supporting us all together. This just provides us all with more strength and her with more freedom to share her strength with me. Thank You!

Family: I was adopted at birth by the most incredible Family on earth! I know many of you might think the same about your family, at least I hope you doâ€¦but I KNOW this. The last week three of my four beautiful and strong sisters were by my side night and day; providing me love and comfort. My sisters presence was sweet and healing and I needed that. One of my sisters, Elana, is an intensive care nurse and her knowledge and advocacy during surgery and my hospital stay may have saved my life. She was always there to encourage me to get outta bed and move on with my healing, meanwhile making sure EVERYONE on my hospital floor was doing their best for me and also taking care of the Hospital staff with sweet little bribes & treats! I’m eternally grateful for all three of you being here! This weekend the Schutt Men come to town, my Father and Brother are on their way and the timing is right, as this Battle takes shape! My Father a Korean War Vet and my Brother a highly decorated Gulf War Vet and Pilot are coming to be by my side, this must mean that the time for tears is coming to an end and it’s time to FIGHT! Unfortunately; we lost our matriarch, my Mom Dafne, a few years ago, she’s a subject for another posting, but I will say she is the single Human on this Earth who has shaped me the most. When I read the kind words you have all written about me and my desire to serve others and live a life of hope and positivity and when you thank me for the good deeds that I have done, you are in fact thanking her, and my Father and the rest of the Schutt family. There were many years in my life where I was truly lost, but they never gave up on me and always provided me with the Love, Strength and Focus to get back on track and to be here today for you and for others. It’s funny how long it takes to realize just how lucky you are. Give Thanks!

The Battle: The last few weeks have brought a lot of tears to me and my family and i’m sure to a lot of you. That’s OK. in fact it’s great! We need to grieve over this news because it is sad. So, if you’ve been holding them back and trying to swallow them now is the time to let go into that pain and experience it. However, soon the time for tears will be over and it will be time to for this Battle to begin. This is indeed a war of LOVE and HEALING, and I hope to enlist everyone of you on my side. I feel you all there behind me and it eliminates my fears and increases my strength. I’ve never been clearer about anything in my LIFE. I feel like everything I’ve learned and experienced in my life has prepared me for this Battle, has prepared me for RIGHT NOW!

Our Opponent: On the advice of my dear sweet cousin Erik, who has lived with HIV/AIDS for decades now I have had a conversation with the Cancer cells living inside of me (wacky, I know,but hear me out). I’ve acknowledged their strength and their own will to live and survive inside of me. I’ve bowed to them and addressed them each specifically. Then I reminded them if their intention is to kill me that they will also be dead. So, they have been notified and given notice, I let them know about the hundreds of people around me preparing to bombard them with PURE LOVE and that they must submit.Â I think we are coming to a more complete understanding of each other.I’m not naieve; I know they are a strong and fierce opponent but I also know that WE can collectively overcome them and move on.

Our Plan: For now I am simply trying to recover from a pretty traumatic Surgery last Friday. I’m meeting with my Oncologist on November first to outline next steps and an aggressive Chemo regimen that will begin shortly after that. Meanwhile I’ve been focusing on learning as much as possible about this disease and ways that I can make my body, mind and soul ready for this fight. All of your suggestions about alternative treatments, diet, life style changes are so incredibly appreciated and they are all being considered. My team of Doctors are among the very best and there are many of you out there working to help me find even better, Thank You! Please know; I’m in good hands and this is a battle that we are going to WIN!

Our Future: Stage 4 colon cancer is NOT the death sentence that it once was! I don’t say that to trivialize, it’s just the new truth. Many people face and over come this disease, many of them do it alone. I plan on doing it with the help of those I Love the most; my Family and my Friends hundreds of you around the world mobilizing on my behalf makes it crystal clear that this is not and will not be my end. I know for a fact that all of you would not be rallying around a loosing cause; you are all too good for that. So, that MUST mean that I have a Lot of Good Work still to do in this life and that in time I will get back to it. This chapter, yes; this grim chapter will end one day and there will be a long and amazing future for all of us to enjoy together. I look forward to reflecting on these dark days with all of you and sharing stories of this battle and our collective good work in fighting this good fight. Yeah Lee, I see us on those rocking chairs too and it’s comforting thank you!

Sunday: I will be there Sunday, with Indra, Arian and my Family. I will be there to celebrate all of you and your amazing efforts to help us over the past few weeks. I look forward to being around all of you and sharing Laughs, Tears of JOY & HOPE and Hugs (softly Please!) but this is not the time for a dirge this is the time for dancing! I might not be on the dance floor with you, but I fully expect to see Shine rawkin out proper! Picture a bunch of Viking Warriors feasting and swilling grog the night before their most brutal Battle remember this is a battle of LOVE; so rock your Camo tu-tu and let yer’ Freak Flag Fly! Sunday we are gathering to serve notice to the Cancer Cells living inside me, they need to know what they are up againstâ€¦they need to receive their own grim news of the end. Collectively we will deliver to them our own prognosis of HOPE, LOVE and GRATITUDE and literally & kindly ask them to just move on, there’s too much fun to be had here for them any way.

Give Thanks,

Otto

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